Why do i tell you this?

Let me tell you my own story. Get your tea/coffee, do your potty break and settle down, that is gonna be a loooooong story. 🙂 Worth-reading I promise.

Poetry/writing had always been my true passion; I feel at peace, serene and at ease with everything while writing, it had always felt very easy and natural to me, just like breathing. I remember writing my first poems around 12 and whenever i read back my teenager poems, I eyeroll so hard at my own art. 🙂 Yet I see the beginning of my journey, noticing that I had alwasy had a way with words.

In May 2021, I went back to writing in full focus, from the times that are left to me after kids go to bed. I am a mummy of 2 young kids, the only real time is when they go to bed and that is of course if they sleep without any trouble. In June 2021, I published my first English poetry book and the rest just came so fast. Right now I have 8 published, 1 soon to be published and 3 as work-in-progress.

I am located in Turkey, it had been a very big disadvantage for me since the beginning of my self-publishing, big sellers like Books-A-Million and Barnes&Noble. I even had to e-mail back and forth for months since I finally managed to get my books in GoogleBooks.

In between all of these battles, I had many REAL life people that called my art as a piece of sht, crap, idiotic, etc. I think it was because their broken English was never enough to understand the depth of my poetry and catch up with my wordplays, the joke is on them and to be honest, their lashing outs only made me laugh at them and work harder cos I knew they had always been jealous type. (I come from a very toxic family but at least I know when to shut the f*** up when I do not have anything positive or constructive to say.)

So tonight, after 17 months-it felt like centuries- i had that voice in me saying Pssst, you should check Books-A-Million and Barnes&Noble. My first reaction was like pfff, impossible, impossible but i was also curious and dammit, curiosity will be my death. 🙁 I saw my books there. 🙂 I cried happy tears.

I self-published with Amazon, I love being in control of my own work, choosing the covers as I like, this is important to me cos all my books carry a different spirit in them, they are very seperate personalities of me and I may have sounded like multiple personalities but when you read the books, the language, the background story of the poems, the in-between the lines will make it clear. To be honest, I do not think I can explain it better. 🙂

So tonight, I am crying happy tears. Another dream that came true because I never gave up. I never listened to that people who tried to drag me down. I had listened to myself. I stayed true to my own heART. IT is paying off.

So do it. Never listen to the people who does not inspire you. Listen to yourself, how do you feel when you talk about these dreams? Do you sound like life and magick? Then go after these dreams, always.

Much light.

CAT